The love of my life
I was a girl who was filled with depression, anxiety, post traumatic disorder and a misdiagnosis of bipolar. I was studying in a college 450km far away from my home. I met a guy online and we started chatting and connecting really well. Then one day, my concussion headaches kicked in so bad I could not get out of bed for few days straight. I kept trying to go to school, give my tests and still would talk to him every day . Then I told him that my headache is not going away and he told me to go to hospital right away. First he thought I was faking it and then when I called he realized I am not lying. Since that day up to a month ago, he never ever left my side. I came back at my home side to meet him the following weekend. We connected so well right away like we are meeting someone we knew from our birth. He moved to my residence with me right away. Then he saw I was having huge anxiety issues and he never left my side. He would dress me up, take me to dinner every other day and always keep me happy. Then we moved to different places as we didn’t have enough money to stay at the places. Then we started settling down in main Toronto areas. And then my mom started connecting with him like he is her son. We moved closer to my house. But my family did have issues with him since the beginning. And when I was living at my house, I was going to go meet him in the night. Everyone used to seem like they have accepted him but my dad ended up physically abusing me and my mom. So he came to save me . Since a week after he started changing. He would get angry at me for everything and accuse me of not doing stuff he wanted in his way. He would lose his temper so fast and he knew it he is doing it wrong. So he will try to control his anger. Then one day I heard him talking to his ex girlfriend and I asked him to clear things with me now. So he starts blabbering so much stuff in his anger. Then I tried leaving the room and he came behind me grabbed my hand twisted it, and slapped me. Then I slapped him back and he starts slapping me back a lot. Then he chokes me. After I hand him the knife to kill me but he stops all of these things and asks me if I want to live with him or not. I had no choice then to say a yes. Then our emotions come back up and we try to forget this ever happened. But after I was so scared of him so I had to complaint . I have no clue where he I right now. I miss him so much. But I can never forgive him anymore. I wished I could see him. I wished I could fix things with him but I do not have the guts to even be with him under same roof anymore . So all I do is pray for his safety and live my life the ways I wanted to live. I really really hope my God keeps him protected from everything that is bad out in the world.
